Shot of UGH
I went out with the kids from work last night. They are nice kids, but kids nonetheless - I've got a decade on most of them which puts us (as far as I'm concerned) on different planets. For the second time in my life I went to the lower deck and sang along with sea shanties while people yelled out "sociable". If you know me, you can understand that I was totally out of my element.
And this morning, feeling tired, hungry, lazy and sorry for myself.... I realized, as I often do, that I have no element. The people that I used to have fun with are also on different planets - the planets of babies and families and normal things that people my own age are supposed to be doing.
I know this is just a mood, and it will pass, but I am crushed by the weight of loneliness today and it is a crippling feeling. I've got to stop talking about getting my shit together, and actually get my shit together. I'm lost.
posted by ces @ 3:04 PM
2 Comments:
I hear ya on the different planet thing. Sometimes I'm not even sure I'm in the same universe. The only time I think I am in the right place is when I sit down with my writing buddies and find a common mindset.
Now, crazy lady, not all of your friends are married with babies. Some of us are trying to figure out the same stuff that you're trying to figure out, and some of us are just a little bit older than you!
We've all been there. We'll all get through it.
And don't go to the Lower Deck anymore. That kind of thing will only make you feel older. Next time try the Pogue Fado!
D.
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